Wow u made him out after 17 years. Is he married ?? Coz u in this state all your emotions are reawakening 4 him try and forget about him. I'd think he would be married. Also think about ur child u need to b a role model. I was in the same position lovebird on campus things happened he studied further for another 3 years porposals came he told me to wait til I was 25 I was sceptical and married and ever since I miss him. My husbands not a shadow of this guy but I try 2 b a good wife tho. Diff is if u love someone relations in bed and life and acts u do wil b so much better. Its hard to move on but that's life. Should always go for the one you love I feel otherwise itl be like my position.