i am a girl who 4 years ago went to study abroad.Although i come from a very pious background and family when i was far from family and also due to influence from shaitaan i kind of lost my morales and started dating various men even married men(i did not sleep around) just for fun. i then came back home after my studies and realised what i had been doing wrong and would never take that path again. The problem is now its my marriage time and even if i get proposals i get rejected for some reason or the other,and this has made me really depressed to the extent that i feel like theres no purpose of me in life. my parents and evryone are very upset also. i feel like the mistakes i made in the past are coming to affect me now.i just dont know what to do or who to talk to as it is really eating me up.