What do you have remorse for? By your own admission you did not sleep around, you did nothing but date. The only thing you did wrong was to date married men because this may have hurt their families.

You grew up in a pious, sheltered environment. Part of growing up for all young people is to experiment with different lifestyles. Your family and community can't simply tell you what is the right life for you EVEN THOUGH THEY MAY BE RIGHT. You have to find this out for yourself - what you can live with and what makes you happy - and you did.

Stop judging yourself unfairly. You matured from the experience and now know what is right for you. Put it past you, pull yourself together, and know that your 'failures' make you stronger.

You're more than likely only getting rejected from proposals because you are visibly unhappy and anxious. Give yourself time to heal before you look for more proposals. Getting proposals is not the be all and end all, you have plenty of time. You will have a happy life.